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Sunday, December 31, 2006
The last day of 2006 (summary of this yr)
Hmm....Kind of fast huh...finally is the last 2 hr of 2006..This year indeed is a year which i hope that i will not go thru again, bad, worse and wat kind of word can i use to describe this yr..* I aso dunno...Nv achieve anything and I went thru the darkest valley of my walk with God...Really fall til the deepest..Haiz...But is thru this I learnt alot in friendship and I really step into the world to see how the world look like....Hmm....For the past four yr...In my life only cgm, church, sch and work...No time for any other thing...But this year was a totally different yr for me...I been thru and played thru alot of thing that I nv tried b4...Really...Is fun but at the end you will still be bored out by that..Really..Maybe the HS is alway in me that why He will always be there to remind me what is wrong and right...That What make me different from the rest ba...Even they r not christian....But they r really a good bunch of friend that I nv regret knowing..thru them I learn how to tresure friendship and spend time more...Really...Even tout they like to do 'Monkey business' but when I am having problem and trouble they r the one that stood by me to encourage me and let me feel that I am not alone facing all this...Indeed I thank you guys...thru them I learnt to noe that when there is love,concern and accompany in that place..Everybody will be attracted to there even how many yr they have spend in the previous place...So I told myself, If I will be catch back my fire in cgm, I want to bring the same love, concern and accompany to the cgm whereeven I dun have to called ppl will still come...That is what we use to do in N248...Finally realise....
When friend r having problem called and ask how r u will not heal any hurt and loneliness...but is the our presence that make the different even we cant help much...This few day I kept asking whu is my best friends??? No one ba....Friend that I always called as best friend seem look faked to me during this period of time....Maybe me myself have not being a good friend to them too ba...Haiz only that few that really there for me when I most needed acc...Thanks..you noe whu u r...
This special day I wan to take this time to thank 3 special person..First is wahju..thank girl for all ur encouraging sms, card and sweet during this period of time when I am most down....Indeed I am really veri touched and it gif me the courage to go back to church...Really...Secondly I want to thx yun for beening there to listen to all my complain and story upon story....U nv forsake me when I am down and you kept encouraging me eventhru u r also at ur down period...Love you alotsa..And thx for this 8 yr of friendship..I will indeed tresure it til old....Last but not least is my Dardar, he have been thru as much as me but he is always there to draw to close to God and let me noe that regretless wat we will not leave God and church....You have sarcrifies alot this year to gif me a bata life and thing that I always wanted....Showering all the love and time...Even there is alot of u time where we always quarrel over small thing but as wat yun say which couple dun quarrel...hahas..Love you alotsa dar....
This upcoming yr...I really must achieve back all the thing that i nv achieve this year...And make changes in my charater...alot to change bt I believe if I wan I can de....Love God and rebuild back the love for Him....It might ned me to start fro the beginning again but nvm is not the time tat matter le ba...is the love that I am going to shower to the rest thru Him that matter to me most...We might be not fro this world but we r in this world to make a different...Get out of my old thinking and start my new year well....Great year ahead ba everyone....
Happy 2007......Dar let jiayou together k....
inOUR world
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
My fun WEEk
Hmm...Finally have the time to blog again le...hehes...So sori wahju, really no time to blog lah...
yea..Last week was my 1 yr ann with dardar...Fast rite..! yr le...hmm...Really alot of up and down, happy and enjoyable moment with dar..But anywhere which couple dun quarrel..hahahs..I gt a new CPU from dar as a present..Indeed God is good..Coz my CPU crashed last 2 week ago and I told dar abt it and b4 I gif my 1st fruit here my blessing...hehehes..I was really surprise coz the CPU is really veri expensive...I didnt even buy such ex gift for dar loh....So you see....This is how my dar bless me in time of needs...PTL...Although is not a veri romantic celebration but the heart is the most impt thing afterall...Thank dar....
Sat..We went out with the F4 gang and jie bing they all..Coz standley and shengda rent both each a car to drive us out to fellowship...Is really a enjoyable nite coz they are those veri "GARAng/ Tian bu pa di bu pa" ppl...And is also the 1st time I sit in FRIEND car...So is really a special experience...Actually dun want to go de but coz standley purposely go and rent a car to drive us out so really not veri good to push it away...So aft work ard 11plus, we went to ter workplace to fetch him but his captain hold him back til 1 plus so we waited for him for almost 1 hr plus..hmm...Thank huh bro..hehehes..Aft which something happan with ter and his gf so we waited for another half hr..hmmm....By the time he was with us is already 2am....So we went to changi village to have our supper and aso to see those "WOMEn"...Haga...It was the 1st time I have such a close look at them...Really they are so prefect!!! I mean outwardly....That make me look abit......hahahas...After that, standley they all suggest to go Changi OLD hospital...diao....I objected but no use....So we stil went there....But nothing to scared abt lah....Coz we met few other grp inside so the atmosphere is kind of affected...Is nt scary but kind of class outin....hahahs...So aft that they went to yishun to chatchit and home sweet hm....This is the 1st time in my 20 life I do that....But i fun and thrilling...hahahs...Thx guys!!! love ya....
inOUR world
Friday, November 03, 2006
Hmm...
Hmm.....Here i m to blog again...hehes...recently I was toking to Elsie abt e idea of blogging and she totally dun support the idea of blogging online...For those whu is okay to share their tout and daily event that is still okay la...But cant imagine they can blog everyday telling ppl abt what happen to them...Aft hearing this....Hmmm.....I agree to a certain extend la....To me my secret partner is still my beloved diary....hehehes....I wrote almost everythink inside..Anyway....
Hmm...Sch had reopened...But stil wan to thank God for the joy that He placed in me...Now no more boring and dragging morning where I always gt this mindset of not going to sch and skipping lec but this tout seem to disappear...Kind of weird but stil wan to thank God...Now I am so excited to go to sch coz Elsie, Ida and Eileen is in the same class as me...Yeah....All my Caregrp mate...Life is much much more bata than last sem....Even my shedule is super pack up but just found joy going to sch...Ya, that day I saw our sch last year top student darren...Whoo....He just came back fro attactment in USA...and He won the Mircosoft most valueable member of the year....Cool huh!!! He is only 21 bt yet so talented, handsome and attractive....He just got the sparks and light la.....Hmm....No wonder ppl always said:" Even you dont look good but talent alone can attract ppl "...Pls dun be mistaken k...I am still faithful to the one I choose...hahahas...Ha! So life is not that bad yet...
Ya Fel and Des so sorri for being a pilot on tues....Coz my phone gt some problem cant contact u guys....So sori...Forgive and Forget k.....
Hmm..... This week is a building fund weekend and this time round i am going to really tighten up my belt and give God something that will really Coz my Something...Aft hearing so many testi, I believe when we build God a house, He is going my Build ours...Saying abt building our hse, Mr Terence Tan is going to marry soon....Hmmm....And aft hearing this news, I must really start planning my future...I am already in the "2" club...so hmmm....Plan Plan Plan....But Wat will happen aft Jas go army??? No ppl noe only God Noe so hmmm....But anyway while he is away, I stil gt weilin, des, ron and the rest to kept me acc....So not that bad yet...
Hao la...Going to slp le..Love ya!!!
inOUR world
Sunday, October 08, 2006
RESTART!!
Wa...So long never blog le...I last blog was 3 mth ago...hmmm.....Really alot to share..hehe...Recently just went to genting with des, fel and Dardar... it was fun...Although there will some small conflict and black faces bt still okay...I really enjoy myself becoz it is the 1st time i going oversea with my Friends. The place was romantic and is really suitable for couple...U can see cloud floating pass u... Too long to share everything but I will definately go again..
I almost backslided last mth and thank God for all the words, comfort and confirmation I get from God and my leader, ter. It really pulled me back to tink once again. It is really hard to make a decision and make the right move even you noe which is right. But I thank God for all the happy moment and miracle thing that took place thru out my 3 year wif GOd .. That kept giving me confirmation of where I stand in the kingdom of God..Like wat ter said.. Dun always forces on where you want to see yourself to be and kept fighting towards that that and loses the passion and the place God once stand. But always make sure that God is the center of everything..I dun wish to share much abt this coz is quite Confidence. And I dun wish to bring it up and remind me again.hehes. But indeed is a great experence for me and once again I overcome this mountain..PTL..
Building fund is coming in 3 week time. This time I must really plan properly and gif a good one to Him. Last building Fund I didnt manage to fulfill it. And I kept having this uneasy feeling like I have break my promises to God. So I want to start planning tonight and gif a good one that will please Him.. Amen! After all the good testimonal, It really build my faith up. Although the last mth of building fund fall on my bday mth and mummy have already told me to start saving up for my bday but I am believing God that He will blessed me when I am faithful to build Him a House...
Ya, toDAY ron, dar, joy , weilin , ivan and me dropped by Sis Cindy hse to gif her a surprise...Coz is her 23th birthday..although she already noe we r going to come b4 we gif her a surprise bt we really sit down and spend time together...Really miss her hse, room and the days where we were in her cg...indeed she is the best leader and sister I ever met other than Sun. Hahas...I really learned alot from her and her act and move always motivate me to love God and trust in Him more. We bought her a book..And after all the encouragement Dar and I get from her, I really set a mind me forces myself in God, let Him be the center of my Heart..Although it will be hard but I really dun wan to lose the chance again..
Do pray for us...
inOUR world
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Restore and Renew
wa....so long nv blog le.....Lot of thing happen..first is busy wif work and projects.....Ton of project piling up like a mountain.....And Most of the senior told us is just the beginning...next sem will be more busier than this sem....sobsob...Recently just celebrated dardar 21 bday....Although is his bday bt I was bless with present also....hehehehe....A Ed hardy top and a cute toy dog for my DARDAR...hehehes....Veri the happy...Pastor always said loving each other is not just telling each other how much u love him/her bt is thru giving.....And indeed I found someone that really love me lot and take good care of me when I most needed it.... The BBQ was great...One step closer to his family...hehehes...Mayb is becoz I came from a broken family that why when I feel accepted into the family, I found a great joy within me...hehehes...On the actual day, we went to sentosa...Spend alot but wat the most impt thing is the memories we have make on that day....Took more than 170 photos....hahahahas....I will nv forget....Just wan to take this oppunities to thx Bro Moo for all his sarcrifies and time to plan all this for jasper...Indeed a great buddy of ours....
That day, I spoke to bro terence...Aft toking to him, I realise that for this half year I seem to pressure myself with growth...Wheneven I feel that I m not achieving wat I have planned to achieve I will stress myself...As time passed, I become weary and sick of all the thing that I am doing....Joy left me when I do all those thing....No longer I m carrying that joy that once in me....Only tireness and bunden...It became a duty for me...Now I m happy and carefree...No more heavy bunden and stress...Mayb it take time to heal and restore ...As long the faith is stil in me, I believe I will pick myself up again de..But for now I just ned a good rest...No point doing all this when your joy for Lord is no longer there...Build up the joy and the love that is in you...the Relationship is more impt than all this.....Wat is the point of getting a position up there but lost the love and relationship with God....Might be veri spiritual outward but inward is all emptiness.....hmmm......When there is a relationship with God, auto you will produce a joy in you to do all the thing for Him..... all thing will fall into place nicely...No point stressing myself to do something that I have no joy in doing..This is another wors I get from my best friend, HS.....Jiayou,CLara...
inOUR world
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Be a Light in the WORLD
hmm....veri long nv blog le....haiz...kind of busy this few week...Busy with sch,project,work and POS training....Veri the tired but kind of stretching my capicity lah....Stil dun use to it so some how cant balance it well..tend to forget thing easily...Even dardar aso said that im a " ah ma"....haiz....Got to improve...Yest pst said that even we are in this world bt we are different...thru us ppl will see the Light..Hmm...Hahas..trueTrue....Mayb is really the attutide toward talking and reacting to ppl ba...Take for example, although our principle in life is different from the non-believer but when they see a different in you compair to other , they will auto b attracted to u...My workplace is one of a example...In there, me and jas is the only christian down there bt we are not cast out or wat..instead we can relate easily with them...and become good friends...When they gt any problem they will cum and share with us...Cool...I start to fall in love with my workplace more and more...and the manager and captain are good to us...and even recommand us and praise us...Hmm...Really shine among the rest...So life there is easy...hahahas...thank God for the favour of Man...
I went to watch the DV code...Hmm...Veri complicated..dun really understand...Bt didnt really affect me alot lah...coz i just take it as a story....But this show really open doorways to reach out in my workplace....Ppl begin to have interest in the true gospel and we as children of God are there to bring the correct truth to them....Many of my friends at workplace kept asking us... wat we learn and even wan us to explain the show to them and wat is wrong abt the show...Hmm...So decide to buy " Jesus and the DV code so that we can explain it in a more correct way...
inOUR world
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
3in 1day
Thank eli and joy for your encoragement msg...."P hahahaahas....now in sch library blogging...hmm....3 hr of break...veri the bored...haiz...Cool I like my course more and more..Find programming more & more interesting....I was reading a book on how to deal with ppl who r insecure...One thing that i learn is to confess out thing that you dun like into likes...wheneven you feel conderm or worse abt yourself mediate on God word...Said:" I am rigthous in Christ Jesus"...Keep cofussing and one day you will find that when ppl conderm you or said word that hurt you, you will nt be hurt so easily...For you now where you stand in God...When you noe your standing in God, you no longer will feel worse abt yourself...Amen!!
all of us are God proudest creation...
yest was a terrible day for me...Cough, flu and sore throat just come 3 in 1 day....The throat hardly can describe the pain 2 u guys...Wat i can say is Sharp pain when i swollow my saliva....But thank God, feeling better today...One thing I wan to testify that is wheneven I pray in Jesus Name, the pain in the throat stopped...Cool huh...Bata then medical...I think yestersday others than drinking bottle of water and pumping medical then thing that i did most is praying....And thank God today the sharp pain gone totally...Hurray....Father, Greatest healer...
Hm....Tonight going for my 3 lesson bs on choosing e right partner....last week i learn abt the 8 flaws that wil affect our relationship....& and funniest ting was when pst going thru pt by pt, you can hear alot of funny sound cuming fro behind...sound like: "Hmm...", fake coughing sound & ....I believe aft attending this class, i can really help member whu have relatioship problem and friend that planning to get into a relationship some good advices...heheheheh
inOUR world
